downfall

It's been a few days and I'm down another lb, but it keeps going up and down of course. Stupid scale, water weight whatever. I'm still eating less than 600cals a day. Purging everything I eat pretty much. I've realized I'm addicted to self abuse. Everything I do is related to directly harming myself in one way or another. For some reason, I'm okay with that right now.

I've been so depressed the last couple days. I don't want to do anything. I feel so alone and I know that I am. I have no one to talk to and I just want to runaway and hide. I want to be alone, but at the same time I want someone to just notice that I'm not okay? I don't know. Oh well. Just another day in this life.

Starving on is the only escape for right now. To skinny I come.