fat fail

ugh. yesterday i binged and purged. today was a much better day, only about 400cals...but i just binged on candy(340) and I'm drinking an alcoholic drink(350)...I'm only part way through that though. Ugh! I hate liquid calories. Tomorrow will be most likely a fasting day. Work all day=only water!! I'm still at the same stupid 143lbs! People say I've lost weight...about 10lbs...but I don't believe it. I just want to keep fading and fading away. Fuck life and everything in it!!

stay strong my loves!