day 4

i thought i started the day off great. i took my dog for an hour long walk and i drank a few glasses of my drink. but turns out today has been bad. i had to work for 5 hours and i absolutely hate my job. my dad was all pissed at me for something ridiculous which he has no right to be considering i do whatever he asks me to whenever he wants me to. grr. stupid. so i'm feeling grumpy and tired today. i ate 5 almonds and 5 pecans about 15 minutes ago. stupid stupid me. i just couldn't take it anymore. the hunger pains are getting worse. i'm drinking more and more lemon mix though and i'll be out of the house for a few hours tonight for school so the temptation to eat will lower. i will just go to bed when i get home and then start tomorrow off new.

the weekend will be the toughest. i don't know what i'm going to do yet to plan for that. hmm. all my friends are away this weekend so i can't make excuses that i'll be hanging with them. maybe i'll go shopping all day saturday and then saturday night i'm going out with this guy who i have no interest in whatsoever, but i felt bad saying no, so now i'm trapped. then sunday will probably be a church day, which i'll skip because i really don't like it and that way i can't be dragged to lunch. but it's the super bowl too so i hope i can get away with not eating. no one's said anything to me yet, so hopefully i can just resist all the food and beer and continue my cleanse stress free.

well, stay strong girlies!