new day

i hate myself so much. my face broke out i! it's disgusting. i never get zits either. ugh. i don't even want to leave the house because of it. i'm mortified. of course i picked them too so they're red and ugh. i'm disgusting. hate hate hate myself. hopefully makeup will cover them. anyway i'm a fat pig. i binged. 2 eggos with a spoonful of peanut butter and syrup and a glass of milk on the side. some of it came back out and came back up. the only good thing about that is that i wont eat for the rest of the day. i have been eating significantly less than i usually do and not eating anything passed 3pm. hopefully if i can keep this up and have a max of 400 cals and non b/p sessions i can start losing faster. lets hope so!! anyway im off to fucking school. looking like a disgusting monster. ew. i just want to die. i really do. that's for another post though. have a great day girls!